burden

Everything is crumbling around me. I thought when i decided to move back home that things were going to get better but i was so wrong. I can't pay my rent, i can't pay my phone bill i have other bills that need to be paid and noting is going right. My knee is huge and i honestly think i'm getting depressed, i can't control my moods they are so all over the place. My best friend doesn't know how to be my best friend and i need someone to be tehre to just hold me when i ned to cry and he can't even do that. I'm losing it and i feel like i'm bringing my family down with me, i'm not a suicidal person at all and i would never want to end my life i just wish i wasn't such a burden on my life and the life of my family.